Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Weigh Day

Ok, I can only guess what my last official weigh in was, as my computer problems prevented me from updating my "Pounds Lost so Far" gadget, so I decided to use my lowest recent weight and go from there.  It looks like I gained 5 pounds.  I'm not going to freak out.  I'm just going to power through this.  I think I'll have my computer problems resolved within the week, which will do wonders because not being able to get online has really kinked my style.  The weight loss software I use only allows you to enter your weight once every seven days, and I couldn't get online yesterday so that's already blown for the week.  Totally sucks, but I can work around it.  As far as physical problems, my shoulders are still messed up but my knee seems fine.  I went for a four mile walk yesterday with two kids in the double stroller...approximately 120 pounds extra to push around town.  I had plans to go to the Y this morning but my two year old has a bit of a temp and is acting like he's down for the count.  There is the possibility I can make it in the evening, or maybe even a bike ride.  Now that would be heaven, zipping around on a bike, feeling the wind, no kids bickering....ahhh.

Monday, April 25, 2011

hello again!!!

     Hey there!  I'm back.  My absence can best be explained by a combination of computer problems, being busy preparing for the holiday, ongoing health problems and a bit of a lack of motivation too.  Since that last post I've lost and probably gained those same four pounds.  I've been up and down, still fighting the good fight overall, but with some struggles.  I've decided to change my Weigh Day to Tuesday, which is sort of random, but I feel I just need a fresh start and will make that fresh start tomorrow.
     A dear, dear friend asked me to post about what I've learned lately.  I have to admit that I had to think about this one because I don't feel like I've had any epiphanies, but rather just some things that I already knew have been reinforced by my recent experiences.  1) There's no way around your goal, you just have to go for it head on.  In the context of losing weight, and with many other chanllenges, you just have to be disciplined, remember your plan, and do it, no matter how tough it is. 2) That being said, you have to listen to your body.  If you have a problem, pay attention to it before it becomes a bigger problem.   3)  Remember to learn from your slip ups.  This is a good way to remind yourself of what works for you and what doesn't.  Right now, eating chocolate and salted cured meats isn't working for me.  Neither is skipping workouts.  Fresh start needed.  4) When times are tough, you know who your true friends are.  Make sure you thank them and keep them close!

Friday, April 8, 2011

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Struggling with Momentum

     I'm having a rough time.  Yes, I'm counting calories, which I know is a big help but I'm having a hard time burning calories, which means eating much less than I'm accustomed to.  I just can't seem to get that momentum moving my way again.  I have the drive, the motivation, but my body just won't cooperate.  The knee pain has improved greatly, but my physical therapist said to continue to rest it for another week.  That means non-impact exercise only, such as the elliptical machine and the bicycle.  I know I don't burn a whole lot of calories on the exercise bike, so I hit the two elliptical machines for 30 minutes each yesterday.  This was a decent burn, but it aggravated my two neuromas.  (A neuroma is a pinched nerve between your toes.  When they're really bad they burn and it feels like stepping on a marble everytime you take a step.  I already had surgery on the two, but they still bug me.)
     My shoulder pain turns out to be the rotator cuff.  This is pretty serious if you tear it.  Mine isn't torn but it's inflamed and irritated.  So when the physical therapist says to rest it, you better believe I have to rest it.  I am determined not to let it tear.  So that means no upper body workouts whatsoever.  I can't even lift my two year old, and I've had to reverse the direction of diaper changing.  For those of you who are changing diapers, try it....it's harder than it sounds.  The therapist actually said not to use that arm for a week, but, come on...three kids and one arm....you do the math!
     In the meantime my house is looking scummier and scummier and I just can't catch up on it.  I need to rest that arm.  I hate sitting around in a dirty house.  I find it depressing.  Hubby's schedule is wacky again this week and a half or so, so he isn't able to help out at home much. 
     I see the deadline for my goal slipping further and further off on the horizon, and I don't see anything I can do about it right now, and this is extremely depressing.  Beyond words, really.  My overall goal is still to lose 100 pounds.  I've been cruising along almost to the halfway point.  I wanted to hit my 100 by my birthday at the end of September.  Right now, it looks like the earliest would be mid-October, but that's if I were able to hit that 2 pound per week loss every single week, starting this week.  I think these injuries will set me back further than that.  The alternative is to drastically decrease the calories I eat, but this isn't healthy either because it will result in muscle loss.  My plan was to do this in a healthy way, so I guess I'll just be treading water for awhile.

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Weigh Day!

Good morning!  I'm pleasantly surprised to discover that I made my weekly goal of -2 pounds.  I'm still having problems with knee and shoulder pain, so I haven't made it to the gym.  But I have been exercising with my Wii and I've been burning some calories remodeling my bathroom.  And I've been counting calories again, which I know makes all the difference.  I'm in the process of setting up my next short term goal, with the overall goal still being 100 pounds gone....I'm almost halfway there!!!