Thursday, March 31, 2011

Weigh Day!

Good morning!  I'm pleasantly surprised to discover that I made my weekly goal of -2 pounds.  I'm still having problems with knee and shoulder pain, so I haven't made it to the gym.  But I have been exercising with my Wii and I've been burning some calories remodeling my bathroom.  And I've been counting calories again, which I know makes all the difference.  I'm in the process of setting up my next short term goal, with the overall goal still being 100 pounds gone....I'm almost halfway there!!!

Monday, March 28, 2011

Weigh Days, Rollercoasters and Injuries, Oh My!

I just re-read the last post to remember where I left off.  I was struggling back on March 14th.  Since then I got back on track, and back off again.  Today, just in the last few hours, I think I'm back on track again.  This has been the first true rough patch that I hit.  Here's my story since the last post.  I did well with diet and exercise, though my shoulder started bugging me and got progressively worse until I had to put upper body workouts on hold.  But I hit lower body exercises extra hard.  That weigh day, March 17th, I had exceeded the goal I had set for March 24th by 1/2 pound.  I was on top of the world and wanted to rush on over here to share it with you but my laptop was down.  (I know I can post from my smart phone, but it's a pain and I really kept thinking hubby would get the laptop going.)  I had four compliments at the gym, one from someone I don't really know that well.  They had said that they see me working out, hauling all three kids along, and it was paying off.  Someone said even my face was thinner, which I had noticed but thought it was due to the stomach bug.  Nope, bug is gone and face is still thin!

Having the laptop down meant limited access to some of the technology that I rely on heavily for my weight pun, really.  The router and/or our internet provided server kept crashing and it really slowed my down in terms of counting my calories.  God forbid I should have to keep track with a pen and paper.  I guess it was just me making excuses for exceeding my calorie limits.  My shoulder kept getting worse and I missed the gym a bunch of times because of the boys being sick again.  Just colds, but its not right to bring them to the gym when they have nasty green boogies running down their faces...or was that just another excuse too?  So the next Weigh Day came, March 24th and I had gained 1/2 pound.  Huh.  I was so devasted and angry with myself at the time that I didn't realize until just now while blogging this, that I still met my goal for March 24th...24 pounds in 12 weeks.  Hmm.  I'm sitting here honestly shocked.  I felt so defeated and crushed and disappointed that I had gone sooooo far off course that I gained.  And yet I met my goal.  Wow.  Sooooo, I've been beating myself up for a week for a relatively minor crime, in the grand scheme of things.  I know there's a lesson in there somewhere.

The day after that Weigh Day my knee started to hurt, bad.  Possibly the result of all the extra lower body workouts?  And hubby brought home a bottle of wine, which we enjoyed over the course of two evenings.  Which also included cheese and crackers.  Low fat cheese, but, still.  And my knee pain brought exercise to a screeching halt over the weekend.  And I made pancakes for the fam, but actually ate some with them this time.  (Do you know that I've been making pancakes for them, but not eating them myself?  Eggs are more filling and fewer calories.)  And we went out, all 5 of us, for pizza and beer (only for 2 of us) on Sunday.  Guilt guilt guilt guilt.  Guilt guilt guilt guilt.  So today is Monday and I've been trying to reign myself in.  I feel like I lost control a little bit there.  After rest, ice and motrin, my knee is almost good enough to go to the gym.  I burned 600 calories on Wii Boxing just before I starting writing this.  I'm back.  My technology is back.  I've got to set the next goal.  I'll keep you posted.

For any of you out there who struggle with motivation or determination, or whatever, I hope you can see that I lost mine too...for a few weeks.  So you're not alone.  I beat myself up over it.  I regret that.  It's not useful, just wasted energy.  Some things were out of my control, but I made some weak choices too.  It seems to be about momentum.  The force that makes a moving body stay in motion.  The trick is to get it to swing around and start heading the right direction.

Monday, March 14, 2011

What was the plan again?

Oh my goodness.  I am so far off track it's ridiculous.  I'm still not feeling too great from that stomach bug and now my 4 year old has it.  I need some normalcy here, please.  I'm kind of amazed at the situation, but I miss the gym and the diet too, actually, as much as it sucks to deny yourself yummy yummies and to have to count, weigh, and measure even the good food.  I've never been a huge fan of exercise, but I miss it right now.  That's pretty amazing.  I think I just miss my normal routine at this point.  Last night was the first night in an entire week that I ate dinner.  I won't be able to get to the gym today, but I can start counting calories today.  Right now.  Let's see, a yogurt for 90 calories.  Off to a good start.  Oh wait...then there's the two animal crackers that I thoughtlessly shoved in my mouth.  Or was it three?  I don't even know how many calories those are...why did I eat them?  And maybe I can burn a couple hundred calories on Wii today, now that I think about it.  Okay folks, crisis over, time to get back on track and hit my goal.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Weigh Day

The official loss is 1 pound.  This is quite disappointing considering the killer of a stomach bug I've had since Monday!  I'm sort of kidding.  I'm counting this pound only because, at the start of this, I had said I'd weigh in every Thursday, win, lose or draw.  So there's my pound.  My focus for the next few days is just to recover and rehydrate.  My goal for the coming week is to enter two more blog posts before next Weigh Day.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Weigh Day!

This week's total is 2.5 pounds gone, baby, gone!  I've decided that life can get as crazy as it wants to, but nothing is going to stop me from reaching my goal!  I'm lucky to have found a great gym, our local YMCA, that has some really supportive people and a wonderful babysitting room and staff.  Without them, I really don't think I'd be almost halfway to my goal of losing 100 pounds.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Weigh Day....belated (oops)

Oh my goodness.  It's almost time for weigh day and I still haven't posted last week's weigh day.  I lost 1 pound.  One measley little pound.  It's hard to see that on the scale after the previous week.  Oh well, I can't beat myself up too much.  It is a loss, after all.

Life has gotten insane lately and I'm feeling a little worn out.  Hubby has been working crazy hours under some atypically stressful circumstances.  My parents have been having some big legal problems and my mother feels that we're close enough that she can lean on me.  Not to be crass, but wrong-o.  I've got nothing left to give after taking care of my family and hitting the gym.  I actually went three days without a decent shower last week. 

Weight loss is a full time job, in and of itself.  It truly is a struggle to pack up for the gym with three young children in tow.  And then it's another struggle to get them into their coats when it's time to leave.  Grocery shopping doesn't happen if no one is available to watch the kids and, other than hubby, there really isn't anyone who is able to handle all three of them. 

I apologize for all the boo-hooing here, but I'm hoping that by blogging it out I'll get rid of the stress and find increased motivation.  My plan is to just keep showing up at the gym as much as possible and keep counting my calories.  I know that eventually some of the stress will blow over, and I can only hope to be thinner when it does.  Any other outcome is just not acceptable.